jueves, 28 de octubre de 2010

Just Around the Corner

Sometimes a bend in the road is just a bend in the road. However, you'd be surprised at what the simple act of rounding a corner can  sometimes reveal. Besançon, the city where I currently reside, is an extremely old settlement, and many of the more aged buildings in the city centre have large doors with high archways that lead to private courtyards which one would never notice from the street. Now, admittedly some of these courtyards are extremely boring to look at, if not outright gloomy and depressing, but walking into many of them, one is greeted by charming and unexpectedly beautiful interiors. to dreamers and souls given to flights of fancy, like myself, many of these call to mind tales of hidden realms and far off,magical kingdoms like in Narnia and the Secret Garden. But even the most sober-minded persons couldn't resist the quaintness, history and old-world  flavour that is hangs in the air.

Life is full of these types of experiences. If our journey were a road, it certainly would not be a straight one- well at least that has been my experience so far. At times turning round those bends can be terrifying, at others we can barely wait to swing round the corner if it means getting out of nightmarish circumstances. I admit that I am generally a cautious individual who prefers to think about things- often long in advance- weighing and comparing the various options before committing to any one choice. When confronted with a turn in the road, I sometimes hesitate at times nearly to the point of paralysis. 

But what I've come to learn over the years is that there comes a point where you have thought enough, and no amount of extra study or analysis will make the information you have any more precise. At this point, you just have to take the plunge. And the longer you wait once you've got to that point, the harder it gets to make that move. And, if you're not careful, you begin to atrophy because we were not meant to live static lives.

For good or ill; whether there are thunder clouds black and heavy with rain or brilliant sunshine waiting for you, choose to make a choice. You can either walk over to whatever is ahead or have it slam into you at unawares. So even though your legs may be trembling to the point where you can barely stand, take a deep breathe, steel your nerve, take that first step trusting that inertia exists for a reason and if you apply the force needed to get moving, God will help you build the momentum you need to keep going forward.

martes, 26 de octubre de 2010

Back in the Game

It's funny how you can get so wrapped up in your life and all its obligations that you lose track of other, arguably more important things. This has been my experience over the last couple of months. Rushing from one committment to another, running back and forth from one disaster to the next: putting out a fire here, cleaning up after a flood over there... and before you know it, a day has run on into a week, a week into a month and so on until you look up and realise, another year is almost over.


Yes. That has been the story of my life in recent days, and I know I've said it before- if not here then on my other blog Lyrical Essences- but, I am going to take charge of my life again. True, I have made a few mistakes- ok a lot of mistakes, but I feel like it's time to start putting them behind me: make amends where I can, ask for forgiveness and put down the guilt, fear and self chastisement I've been lugging around for like a load of damaged bricks which are in no condition to be used to build anything solid.


Someone once said you cannot start over...and to a certain extent, they may be right. But regardless of whether you look at it as a new beginning or simply moving forward, life is going to go on whether we like it or not... that's just it's nature. All we have to decide is how we are going to go with it: are we going to make active decisions or sit passively as the current carries us along? The way I see it, there's a time and place for both. However even allowing life to carry us on should be the object of an enlightened and conscious choice, a function of the circumstances in which we find ourselves and not simply the outflow of a battered and defeated spirit. 


So I'm going to strap up my boots, tie my waist, square my shoulders and continue my journey. What are you planning to do?